hello mates, i hope this post doesnt make you feel sad nor dissappointed in life, im just saying things straight out of my heart. and nothing else. do not try to read betweeen the lines too much and as usual im just plainly speaking whatever that comes to my mind.
well things seem to come to a decent halt ever since i went to uk. the worst thing about travelling is that everything from back where you came from would FREEZE UP and when you go back you gotta sort things out as some things actually happen when your away. Oh well, at least ive sorted out certain stuff with several people but im sure theres gonna be alot more. And i havent got much tennis into my schedule, but i need to get my physical up to somewhere decent, im not even able to run a decent 3k. sigh. I guess ive just been fattened up for some reason, maybe im just meant to give up tennis, perhaps i should already have done so when i was injured badly with shin spleens last year. But i screwed up worst and incurred more, i think my knee's the worst, could have been better if i had listened and stopped running, but oh fuck, its all done, the damages have been absorbed by ma body. After all maybe ill just go back to golfing and start again, since im hitting decent shots already and my bad shots look decent? WHY NOT!?
Right now my life is mixed with groups of friends, starting with my best friends since forever, its kinda weird as we all dont wanna make time nor is there much to hang about anymore, weve been together for like forever and i guess best friends never remain as best friends as more people come into our lives and there, the years of sec school have been fun hasnt it, but things have changed. But still im loving the same group of people that i honestly say i can trust.
Jan's awesome, thats all i can say, PERIOD.
Tennis kids, haha, everyone's busy too, a major problem as no time for tennis equals lousy tennis. Laugh i know, laugh, but at least lousy tennis is FUN! though deep inside i feel that its pointless doing something that wont benefit you in the long run. But its the company that counts, and its been utterly weird as ive not seen the whole group together for once in one tennis court.. but i also cant imagine like 10 people on one court. weirddddddd.
Clubbing guys and girls, haha, its been quite a twist as theres like hatred going on between two guys.. and thats worst, i thought only girls bicker and talk shit, now guys do! omg, oh well, ill just silent come back to them when something happens, i mean something good. for now ill just hang with kawai guys and honestly id prefer hanging with kawai ron and brin. but kau still rawks in hawaii.. raves and weed. HAHA!
did i mention that ill be trying one last time this year end tournament. cheerios!
anyway im not actually depressed anymore as someone special called.. mmmmm